I can chase the pain with Tylenol or Aleve, get it down to a dull roar and steal some time back, but I can’t take enough to really do the job without exceeding the daily maximum dosage. I’m trying to stay away from the heavier drugs for now… they have their own lists of effects I’d like to avoid.
Either I’m a much bigger wuss than I ever thought, or it’s hitting me harder – there’s no way I could go to work on this, I don’t see how anyone can. Everything hurts. I dragged myself out yesterday for an hour and half ‘Look Good, Feel Better’ meeting (which will be dissected at a later date, when I’m not racing the pain clock), and it was a Very Bad Idea Indeed.
My legs hurt constantly, from the hips to the toes; my scalp hurts; my arms hurt, my chest. A world of pain… hot showers help, but I can’t live there; it’s enough that I can’t think clearly, I don’t want to eat – not because of nausea, or off taste (though that’s there), but because too much energy is simply going to maintaining. It’s mid level pain, it’s steady, it’s constant, it’s draining; it changes enough so you can’t get used to it.
I started stealing time from it last night, when I realized – rather belatedly, and in the shower with the water washing the worst off me – that I could try Tylenol, and I did and it worked, and when it wore off and I woke again, I popped two more, and then two more in the wee early hours, and then there I was half done my dose for the day.
So, now I’m trying Aleve, to see if it will last longer, steal me a bit more time back. Aside from the pain and exhaustion, the flat ‘off’ taste of things, it’s no so bad… no great nausea, but a heightened sensitivity to smells and sounds and touch.
I’m still hoping it will pass quickly.